no dreams just documentaries

last night had house to myself for the first time in a long time.
it makes me ansy and happy
i like being alone and i don't
i don't know
it takes some getting used to
that fine line between being alone and lonely
i was mostly happy not having to be at a party that night.
cuz i am sick of parties!

watched FESTIVAL EXPRESS - thumbs up
and
HOME ROOM - which is this awful teen movie that i bought for like $3.99 at Blockbusta
which sucked
but was a time killer.

i guess that's it fo now

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dream #1

So i'm in this prison/assylum talking to all these nurses about why it is i'm there. i say i'm there visiting this woman who was married to this man that i was in an S/M relationship with. the nurses have never heard of nonmonog so i am explaining it in detail, trying not to sound too judgemental. they keep starring at me. finally i ask if i can just have my forms and go and they comply. i wander down this hallway and get to this other desk and shake out my purse to find the forms to give to the attendant so i can go in and see my friend.
it turns out i have two forms with two different dates on them.
which is suspcious.
i tell the attendant i don't know what happened.
she says she wants to detain me.
i freak out.
say i just was trying to help out, go visit this woman to calm her down. say she KNOWS i'm coming and i don't want to be responsible for any INCIDENTS.
get sweaty.
decide i'm going to just run away.
start running.

wake up.